i will find my way

new blog: heart-compass

My new blog is heart-compass

I will leave this one for the memories.

Me:

*successfully avoids social event* nice

Me:

*is really lonely* shit

I don’t know what happend. I used to be so confident but for the last two months my self-esteem has been so low. 

I’ve been thinking about cutting too much and I can’t make it stop. 

I am worthless. I’m not talented, I’m not special in any way. I’m egoistic. I want him to understand without explaining.
Why would I think that someone wants to be with me? Who has loved me and wanted to stay. Not even my own parents. It’s my fault that nobody wants to be with me.

I can’t get these destructive thoughts out of my head. I’m thinking about cutting again when a few weeks ago I managed to throw away a blade that I never used. I never thought they would come back so soon.
I just don’t know what I want in my live anymore.

lifesuggestions:

Love your fucking life. Take pictures of everything. Tell people you love them. Talk to random strangers. Do things that you’re scared to do. Fuck it, because so many of us die and no one remembers a thing we did. Take your life and make it the best story in the world. Don’t waste that shit.

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I am healing. It’s a slow process, I will have my ups and downs, but I’m healing.
I deserve it.

jannyckayeo:

sometimes i get sad but then the world does this and I’m okay

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chlorodream:

lady-of-redemption:

He did it. He actually managed to describe how it feels to live with depression and suicidal tendencies.

this is really, really important

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“The most painful thing is losing yourself in the process of loving someone too much, and forgetting that you are special too.”
—   Ernest Hemingway,  Men Without Women
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hynem:

happiersuggestion:

there are people you haven’t met yet who will love you

this really made me feel good. 

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queering-out-loud:

Gonna be a bomb ass wife someday.

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I just never had a home I knew I could go to when I was feeling low.
I didn’t have supportive parents that were there for me when I was sad.
I never had anyone. I never had a home.

withlovesao:

dear you,
focus on yourself
focus on yourself
focus on yourself
focus on yourself
focus on yourself
focus on yourself
focus on yourself.

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princessfailureee:

witchprinxess:

Shoutout to people who grew up with emotionally unsupportive parents and have to hear other people talk about how supportive their families are while you’re basically guiding yourself through life. You’re strong and brave.

thank you for this

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